I was going to make all commentary I have on the background of these two pictures in the caption on my instagram, but I don’t want to leave any room for confusion.
This is not a before unhealthy and after healthy picture. I am not trying to say I look better in one pic and worse in the other. In fact, solely based on the picture, I don’t think I look much different.
The fact is the picture was taken 6 months and 10 pounds apart. In the left picture (taken 6 months ago), I worked out far more dilligently and ate consistently 2200-2400 calories a day. The only reason I wasn’t eating more is that I was still building up my metabolism. I was very proud of my body. I had, for the most part rid myself of anxiety from taking a break from counting macros. Rest days still made me get down on myself, but not to quite as extreme of a point. I had abs that showed up on somedays better than others. I was starting to grow a booty and my leg muscles were kind of showing. I had a strong, defined back.
In the right picture (taken 3 days ago), I work out when I have the time or energy– some weeks that means 5 or 6 workouts and others it means 2 or 3. I eat maybe 1900-3000 calories a day, but that is just a really rough estimate because I do not even attempt to count calories. I am not outrageously proud of my body right now, if I am being 100% honest. I am not saying I am ashamed of it, but it is evident that I haven’t been putting in any hard work to maintaining that “firm”(ish) physique I once had. I eat my fair share of junk foods, but I still mostly eat healthy and I still get at least a couple good workouts in a week. I got busy and I adapted. My abs are still there (mostly because my body accumulates fat on my hips, lower back, and legs before it accumulates on my stomach) and my legs are still strong, even if I have accumulated quite a fat store on them. But I have days where I like my “soft” body a lot more (what’s up big ole booty and boobies).
Moral of the story is you can not always have your “ideal” body. In fact, you may just find that as you adapt your workout and eating habit to your lifestyle, you develop a new “ideal” body. I think it is kind of fun seeing how my body reacts to different eating and exercise habits.
My full time internship kept me busy (and full of tasty foods… they took me out to lunch every.single.day.), but now I am starting my master’s program. It will be a lot of work, but my schedule will be a bit more flexible and I would like to try a new consistent workout routine. I may even add a few yoga classes into it! I am going on a cruise in a few weeks and because I like a challenge, I am using that as motivation to get back into a regular workout routine! I am trying to run 15-20 miles a week with 3-4 weight workouts. I WILL NOT BE CUTTING CALORIES. I will most likely be averaging 2600-3000 calories a day until my cruise. I am fine with having fat and do not feel the need to “cut” just for a vacation. I just want fat to stop replacing muscle!
I know this post was all over the place, but I just wanted to remind you all that just because your body changes doesn’t mean it gets better or worse. Sometimes you have to adapt to what life permits. You are all beautiful and do not ever forget that!
For a pick me up, watch this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PCkvCPvDXk